God works in his very own way. Again.
Some time ago, somehow, I talked a lot with this one person who had just went through a hurtful broken heart. Yet, he wanted marriage so badly, for one main reason: as a form of ibadah or worship to Allah The Almighty. The first time he told me his broken heart story, he was also making up his mind about asking his bestfriend to marry him. The lady had a boyfriend back then… But he said, “I know.. But I’ll just start with Bismillah.. And let’s see..”
Honestly, I thought he was a weirdo. Hehehe. I was not the kind of person who started everything with Bismillah, for I do not know what reason. It just felt weird.
Another time, he needed some advise on how to talk effectively to the lady – his future wife (he proposed and she said yes!). Unfortunately, I was heading to my GMAT class and couldn’t meet him. And he told me, “go study. Start with Bismillah… So your study will be counted as ibadah…” I have never thought of that before… But well, there must be a reason why school started with prayer when I was a kid.
Very recently, cause of some silly misscommunication, I challenged him on his wedding plan (yea, I am sometimes a pain in the ass when it comes to truly supporting my good friends), and he told me, “I have faith in this. I feel at peace. And I start with Bismillah…”
Just another conversation involving Bismillah, I thought to myself… But this time was kinda huge…
Few days ago, I was telling him that I couldn’t attend his talk next Thursday and blabbing about revising my essay and running to my GMAT class. And again, he told me, “Don’t forget to start with Bismillah… So all those that you do count as Ibadah..”
I didn’t start my GMAT class with Bismillah that day. But in the middle of the class, I had difficulties concentrating and somehow my mind wandered to that conversations about starting things with Bismillah. So, I said it.
I felt a little warm inside.
Yesterday, I had a rough day, nearly blacking out for no reason. So, I spent the whole day resting on my bed. This morning I reached the office feeling so energized and fully charged. I started writing my “to do” as soon as I got to my desk. But somehow my mind wandered to those Bismillah conversation again. So… I finally reached out to my stationary box and wrote this..
And yes, I did start with Bismillah today.. And now that I have sticked a reminder on my desk, at eye-level too… I kinda said it more often. Funny that my eyes keep bumping to the post it everytime I am feeling like I am doing such a nonsense job or like I am going to face difficulties. Hoho, difficulties remain and my job is probably still nonsense. But umm.. I don’t know.. It just feels right saying the word.. And warm.. And light.. So.. Yea, I think I’ll begin more things with Bismillah..
I know You always work on Your very own way. And um… Thank You for keeping a big patience for me. 🙂